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Today, I weigh 255 lbs.
How did I let this happen... AGAIN!!!
Raw, not raw... consistency with healthy eating, then undoing all of my previous progress and gaining everything, plus a little extra, back on to my poor 5'2"frame. You'd think that the constant pain I have from severe fibromyalgia would be enough to make me realize that I have to make some significant changes in my lifestyle, not even counting my future risk of Type 2 diabetes, cancer, and heart disease if I don't make changes NOW.
Why is it so hard to stick to this, and so easy to eat the garbage foods that have comforted me for so long?
Okay... pity party over.
I had already made the decision to get back on track with the announcement of Cleanse America 3, and I signed up but did not start with the rest of the group because of having my 21st wedding anniversary and my birthday both in this past week... and we all know how horrible (insert sarcasm here) it would have been for me not to eat my favorite foods for these two celebrations... I mean, that would have meant some cruel form of deprivation to actually eat healthy food instead of rich, cooked foods, right?
So, here I am... back again, and working to shift my mindset so that I stick to it this time. Letting go of feelings of failure from all the weight I lost last year during the Go Fresh initiative here on RFR. Dwelling on that is not going to move me forward and holding on to the negative emotions will be like an anchor holding me down into unhealthy patterns of eating and thinking.
Today is Day 1. Today, I leave the baggage behind and start anew, with hope and commitment.
I am not setting any particular rules for myself this time. When I did Cleanse America 1, I did a ten-day juice feast, and the detox was really intense, so I don't think I'm ready for that right now. I am just going to try to intuitively listen to what my body wants, and try to go that route, as long as it's low-fat, mostly-raw vegan. I'm aiming for 100% raw, but I'm not going to be legalistic about it and not allow myself to have fresh, healthy, gently cooked vegan foods, when that makes sense for me.
A pleasant surprise is that my 17 year old son told me yesterday that meat just wasn't tasting good to him anymore, so he now wants to eat more vegetarian, along with some fish. I'm really happy and pleased that he came to this conclusion on his own, so although he won't be primarily raw, like me, I am encouraged that this is the beginning of healthy lifestyle change for him too.
I would really appreciate some support on this journey. I've been away from RFR for a while now, mostly because of shame for how I "fell off the path." I'm happy to be back amongst kindred spirits.
I had hoped to taper off caffeine before beginning today, but of course, I didn't, so I'm going "cold-turkey" today. I started my morning with a large glass of filtered water with lemon juice and a couple of cups of detox Calli green tea, so I'm hoping that helps me to not get a migraine as I have a quiz in my French class tonight. :)
Day 1 - 1 October 2012
Weight: 255 lbs.
Pants Size: 26
Thanks in advance for any support you can give me; I am glad to be back. :)
Day 1 Food/Liquid Intake:
Upon rising: 16 oz. filtered water with lemon
Morning: 16 oz. Calli tea
Late morning: 36 oz. green smoothie with red kale, orange, bananas, bee pollen, Vitamineral Green, and coconut butter; all fibromyalgia supplements
Lunch: not hungry, but drank water; headache from caffeine detox
Mid-afternoon: 1/2 Honeycrisp apple
Late-afternoon: large salad of red kale, mixed sea vegetables, and tomatoes with lemon juice and a little olive oil
Evening: small handful of raw almonds
Exercise: walking to/from class; not very much, but it's more than I've been doing