Adding LIFE to your years and years to your life!
Three years ago today, my mom went to be with the Lord. After 10 years of chemo, radiation, pills, illness, pain, and suffering, she left, surrounded by her family. The Metastatic Breast cancer had taken its toll and rampaged through her body until every organ, every bone was contaminated with the enemy. And though we didn't always see eye to eye, I've chosen not to dwell on the bad things in our relationship but to remember the good things.
At the Cancer Treatment Center of America in Tulsa, OK mom was know as Big Red because she always wore a red wig. She had hoped her hair would grow back in red and curly but that wasn't to be. Even though mom was in pain and sick, she always greeted the nurses with a smile and laughter, which surprised them because they were used to the look of sadness and illness. Very few folks at CTCA knew her as Sally, but simply knew her as Big Red.
My mom gave the best hugs. She was a large woman (before her two mastectomies and the treatments and cancer shrank her) and she had a pillowy chest which was at the right level for me to just lean over a little bit and lay my head down. She would wrap her arms around me and just rock. I miss those. After she died, I would turn to warm, soft, sweet foods to try to make up for those hugs. But nothing can take the place of a hug.
This year is easier than last year and definitely easier than the first year she was gone. I miss you momma! I love you lots! I hope I bring joy through warm soft hugs like my mom.