If you know who I am you will know I've been around the Hab on and off for a long time. You may have read my blog before writing about my health journey and learnings and often times my struggle to stick with raw food. Struggling to find the key to sticking with making my health a priority. I have all the books, have watched all the films and documentaries, even gone through some personal coaching and still even write a blog about my journey. I understand it very well.
You would think having my life turned upside down with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue 8 years ago and the ensuing struggle with it would be enough to switch my eating habits for good. I have even spent years bedridden during this time with bouts of "recovery" including good days and bad. But I didn't make a full commitment. I knew that my symptoms and condition meant the body was on alert and that bigger health challenges most likely would be ahead for me. I knew this all but I guess I was in denial. Thinking I had more time.
I still bounced back and forth from eating my tasty raw creations and having my green smoothies every day, to eating out in restaurants, old style, and indulging in unhealthy comfort food when my mood dictated it. My blog is full of yummy raw treats, because that is always appealing and I can honestly say I prefer raw desserts to non raw ones these days. But even with this I was kidding myself. Sure they are beautiful and delicious and the ingredients are for the most part healthier, but altogether? Not in those quantities.
No, I was playing with raw and my health. What I call doing the Hokey Pokey. You know, in one part at a time and then out.
Well, my time ran out this week. I suffered a mild heart attack. It was like they say for women, incognito. It was in the form of extreme back pain that eventually ran down my arm to make it numb. Funny thing is, these are common symptoms for me so I missed them. I went to the pool the next day hoping to relieve the back pain and nearly drowned- choking drinking water. My neighbors came to my rescue and afterwards I was understandably shook up. It was quite dramatic. I turned blue and thought my time was up. It was a full near death experience with visions etc. but it wasn't over.
The extreme back spasms continued. I saw my doctor as an emergency visit over Easter weekend and he ran some tests. I had had a heart attack. You can imagine how it feels to hear that news. I'm 47. Too young for this right? Nope.
I ignored my poor health warning signs. I played with getting healthy and raw.
I have not shared this news publicly. I share it here to hopefully inspire someone who like I was is riding the fence. You never know when you're time will come or when your body has had enough. Start reversing the damage now. Make a commitment to yourself and your future. Take it seriously because it is serious. Your loved ones need you here. We all need you here.
Put your whole self in and turn your life around. That's what I'm doing now.