Adding LIFE to your years and years to your life!
So the goal that I made for myself isn't about food or exercising...it is about me and my emotions. I will be 40 this year, my husband and I had were not able to conceive for 10yrs. We finally adopted two beautiful children from birth. My son was 48hrs. old when we recieved him and our daughter was 24hrs. old when we recieved her, so we have had our children since birth. My husband and I were both 35 when we adopted our son. Not old, but not that young either in my opinion. I can understand why people have their children in their 20s. It seems that my patient level is getting thinner and thinner as I get older. I have a tendency to lose my temper quickly with my children more so with my 5yr. old son then my daughter.
I am not sure what it is about my son that makes me lose my temper with him so quickly! I was in counseling for this, however money got tight and I had to stop going. My counsel told me that she believed that my reason for losing my temper with him was because of my childhood. My father always wanted me to be the perfect child, and hence I think that I am doing this with my son. My husband says that I need to just let him be, but I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to just let him be a kid, because I am afraid that he will do poorly when he isn't around me. However his preschool teacher has said that he is very good in school, his karate teacher says the same thing. I am starting to worry about the damage that I have already done to him because of my yelling. When I do raise my voice to him he immedietly starts to cry and he covers his ears. I know that he can NEVER be perfect, heck I am not even perfect, but for some reason I think that he needs to be. I get frustrated or embrassed when we go out somewhere and he acts up and doesn't listen, so I lose my temper and then I yell which makes him cry which frustrates me more.
I love my children very much and I want to be a good mom, so this is why from this day forward I am going to do my best to not lose my temper. I have slacked off on my running and I relized that when I would run first thing in the morning I would feel good and I would have a good day. I do still exercise and I have even started doing yoga twice a week, but it doesn't seem to help. I know that I also need to start speaking more postive. For the past two days I have been saying this is going to be a long summer with my son, how postive is that!!??
I would love to hear from any other moms or dads that have gone thru this, or any advice you may have that would be awsome! Thanks for letting me share!