Adding LIFE to your years and years to your life!
So I broke the fast today. Had a wicked bad fight with my boyfriend of 8 years. He said I was joyless, I'm miserable all the time, I barely talk, we don't have a good relationship with each other, he feels lonely around me, I take him for granted, I always look blank, I'm not interested in anything in life except raw foods... It wasn't good. We've had the same fight a few times. He's tired of dealing with me. He's tired of me saying I'll change and not following through.
I'm not sure what's going to happen at this point. We're not over, but it's at the point where if I don't change and be positive and happy going forward, I don't think he'll want me in his life anymore. I told him it was the last time we were going to have this fight. I said I was going to put all my energies into making my life more positive. I meant it. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it, but I'm going to put all my effort into it. I have to.
I took him to the movies to try and make up. We saw the film Hugo. (Really amazing looking movie.) Then we went out for soup for dinner. It wasn't raw soup but mine was vegetarian. Close enough. I only ate the broth and the vegetables. I didn't eat the tofu that was in it because I didn't want my stomach to have to deal with it. I feel okay. I have no idea how much sodium was in the soup, but I'll monitor how I feel.
So I made it almost 13 days 100% raw. I'll admit I'm a little disappointed I didn't stick with it longer, but I'm not done yet. I'm going to make the next bite raw, and the next one, and the next one after that. I'm going to continue with the blended soups, smoothies and juices and just take it one day at a time.