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I joined here awhile ago, and promptly forgot about it. I started making changes in my life and wanting to put some time in on me and it quickly fell to the side. I am really not good at making time for me , even if it is for my health. There were alot of things going on in my life, that it wasnt the right time for me to jump into anything else...well now its become a must not a want. My health has taken a turn for the worse and for a 33 yo woman I really shouldnt feel this old.Feeling old is actully and understatment because currently its 9pm and I am in bed, exhausted....again. I am a mama of five and I am unable to give my full best to my kids, because I have nothing left. At the end of the day , I have nothing. I am going to list my health problems here , not becuase I want people to read it and feel sorry for me, but because I am going to use this place as my go to. I decided that facebook had to go because it wasnt really doing anything good for me, so my hope is that I can come here, and gain knowledge, friendship and support.
Alright here are my truths guys....
-overweight [I am currently 233.5lbs and 5'7] . Though this isnt the biggest I have been its certainly the worst I have felt.
- High blood pressure
-Really bad PMS and other menstral type issues.
- Sleep problems, I need to much.
- swelling of my hands, feet and face
- itchy skin , all over itchy skin
- itchy eyes
- bad skin
- no sex drive
- breathing problems
- knee and other joint problems
- really bad stomach pains and aches
You would think with all this, eating better would just be a no brainer. I am addicted..I am addicted to bad food. It wasnt always this way. At a few points in my life , I actully cared how I felt and looked but it seems since baby five arrived....I just dont care. Or I should say, I DIDNT . Now I do. The catalyst I think for me, and this is just me being honest here is that I have people around me dropping likfe flies and it scares me. some are dying and some have just had to recreate their worlds drastically becuase of health problems. I dont want to die or have to be forced into bed rest because of the choices I am making. I dont want to lead this life anymore.
You would think that I would be able to do this no problem. I am an organic farmer! I have a huge grden filled with a mix of vegetables. But still I put off and put off . I am very much addicted to coffee and sugar. I love things that are just not good to me, even though I feel sick afterward. I still eat it. I sometimes feel like a drug addict.
I need help , and I really dont know where to find it. which is why I am here . I need someone to get on my case and to care long enough to get me started, but I have been looking for that someone for way to long that now its become a reason not to.
So I am jsut gonna do this thing and see where I end up. I am not going to make any hefty promises to myself, other then to try and live each day as it is given me and take care of myself. I suppose I am going to make some big demands on myself though , because tommorow will be the start of the first day without coffee. ack. I know I need to do this as I feel like crap before I get my morning cup and I feel like crap afterwards too. Its like an additct running after that first high..lol. yet maybe not as intense.
Anyway. I need help, and as you can see I am super ready to be honest with myself, and I want to be honest with others too. I need to keep this totally real.