Adding LIFE to your years and years to your life!
Sometimes I do the absolute most GOOFIEST things. Today I was trotting around the kitchen and I caught myself singing, with the inflection of the Beach Boys, "I'm a sweet potato-tariannnnnnn"
Hahahahahaha I have issues. Does anyone else randomly make up songs without even realizing it in the middle of doing general, every day, run-of-the mill things? I even make up songs in my dreams while I am sleeping. I can't remember last night's, but there was one. I would love to begin a dream diary again--I absolutely love dream-reading and it's one of the most informative things you can do to learn about your true emotions, the ones you keep latent and bogged up inside that you don't even realize are there. To keep a dream diary, all you do is keep a notebook and something to write with next to your bed and when you wake up in the morning, immediately write about the dream you had. I find that the more I do this, the more dreams I seem to have, or the more I realize that I've had dreams and remember them anyway. I stopped doing this though because it kind of messes with your head a little and can be interruptive toward deep sleep. I used to be obsessed with it in high school though. I got straight A's in my social psychology classes' dream section. I am also a lucid dreamer, so that made the teacher really fascinated with my papers. He was such a cool, goofy teacher! Anyone else here a lucid dreamer?! It's such a strange, fascinating thing. I can also turn it on and off because it really does disturb my sleep cycle and it can get really intense to delve so deeply into ones emotions, so if I am interested in it, I can teach myself to re-do it again, and if it's getting to be too much, I can teach myself to stop. It sounds strange but I am pretty sure a lot of lucid dreamers, if not all, can do it.
There's nothing really special about being a lucid dreamer, it just means your dreams have a lot more going on in them than the majority of people's. They're more complex and you can even control your dreams, they tend to be in color, and you can do things like fly and sing and, just stuff that I guess most people for some reason don't experience when they dream. I have the suspicion that everyone has the power to do it if they put it into practice. There are how-to's of how to do it online.
I think it'd be interesting to know if once someone became raw, that they became a lucid dreamer after becoming raw as well. It'd be interesting to know the psychological transference that people experience in addition to just the physical ones that people undertake when switching over to the optimal diet. There's no doubt in my mind that something changes at least a little bit.
I have been maintaining my weight for the last week or so, which is kind of cool. This must mean that I am at least having normal hunger signals and using my energy in a moderately healthy way, and I am also keeping a balance in regards to my dietary lifestyle. I am glad to see the consistency because it means I know how to be balanced and not go too extreme with all this and if I need a break, I know I have the ability to do that. I would appreciate to lose 12 pounds, but as I said in my previous entry, I am not going to take what I already have for granted and I am just going to do the best I can to lead the healthiest lifestyle I am able to by embracing myself for what is rather than feeling sad about what isn't enough. Because it's such a negative thought pattern, it's unproductive, not beneficial, and life is really too short to think that way. Just going to keep trying and enjoying. :) Enjoyment first. :) !!! Happiness is the most beautiful form of beauty of all!
Also I bought a butter called, "soy nut butter." I am certain it's not really raw approved, but I wanted that something in case I come across a recipe calling for nut or seed butter and I don't really want to use either of those. I remember it didn't matter what kind of butter I got, I'd inhale the whole jar with my nut addiction...I'd even binge on this stuff I just bought. But now I have almost been repelled by it! I have wanted to try it but I just can't desire it. It's so heavy!! Regardless I am happy I have it on hand in case the right recipe comes up.
I am enjoying my diet very much right now, my arthritis hasn't been bothering me very much, and I've been getting lots done. Huge footnote that I want to add, maybe to help you guys out but also because this has greatly been helping me and I am going to embolden it so I can find it later if I need it: Instead of allowing what stresses I have in my life to overwhelm me, I've been trying to instead embrace the fact that I am so lucky to even have these opportunities. The stress I am facing is because of all of the choices I am having to make. But rather than allow that "pressure" to crumble me, I am instead so gracious that these opportunities exist. It is truly beautiful and I will no longer take that part of the equation for granted. I am going to embrace these choices rather than see them as pressures. It has been making me feel happier and more blessed than ever, and more willing to help others than ever.
Toodaloo lovelies. :)