Juice Feast Day 3 & Rageful Detox...

[DaisyHair]

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Day 3 of my 10 day juice feast.

I am feeling pretty good today.  So far so good anyway.. yesterday as the day went on I started to feel yucky (tired, achy and pretty good headache) so I decided it was time for that coffee enema.  I am getting to where I don’t mind them.  It’s I think my 6th one I have done in the last year.  After that I felt much better and took a nap..

I have closed down my business for a couple of weeks (I work out of a home office.. I am a jewelry designer and sell gemstones to other designers).. I have decided my health was more important than business..  at least for a while… until the guilt sets in!

I made a veggie “broth” soup with my juice last night. I really wanted something warm.. I used a food thermometer and heated it to 100.  It was just warm enough for me at that. I just went to the fridge, started pulling out LOTS of veggies and juiced them.. I got carried away.. I used tomato, celery, cucumber, carrot, kale, parsley, red chard, red bell, beet, ginger and 2 cloves of raw garlic.. pushed them thru my juicer and although it could have been a horrendous juice I got lucky!  It was REALLY good (I love garlic but toward the end it was a bit too much garlic.. but not too much for me to finish!).  

Emotional Detox...
I am preparing for what is to come for me... I remember on my last juice feast (I only made it to 7 days) on day 6 I had a horrid, emotional melt down. I actually felt like I was almost possessed… (seriously).. I felt dark and mad and angry.  And VERY, very rageful.  I thought I was going crazy.  I felt like I was someone else. 

I wrote about it in my journal and was pretty traumatized by it, I almost had like this feeling of evil around me.. I think with my Christian upbringing though that I just related evil to the really dark feelings that were coming up.. and the extreme anger. 

I knew about emotional detox but was REALLY freaked out by it.  The next day was only the tiniest bit better.  I ended up not being able to cope with it and coming off my feast that night.  

I have a few things in the past that have happened to me that are pretty sad but I really thought I had worked thru them truly..   I have not thought about them in years.  I’ve done the therapy, done the burning of written letters, done all the things you are supposed to do to “release” past trama.  Why would that come back up.. when I really felt it was GONE - I did all the right things..?

Anyway this time I want to reach out ahead of time and ask what others have experienced with emotional detox.  I know it can be bad.  I’ve read Angela Stoke’s book about it.  What have you all gone thru with this?

Either way I am doing this.  I may come here begging for support in a day or two but I am not giving in this time.  I have to make it thru that. 

Have a GREAT day everyone!  I am feeling very hopeful.

[Bette Bliss Shaw]

Know you are loved and it is all ok. You are safe and this will pass it just might cause a stir on its way out. It is all ok. Honor it and be with it. Thru trauma, you were made strong (probably creative too) One day, trust me, you will have no regrets and see what you experienced as a blessing. You shall overcome by letting it pass on through.

[djd]

May you have strength and remain firmly resolved to go in the direction of Good.

[DaisyHair]

Hi Janet!  Thanks doll.

I truly tried to forgive it all.. I thought I had.  Maybe it's just old cellular memory being released or such.  I think being prepared this time around will help.  I love your post and I am thankful for it very much.  I may come knocking on your email here in a day or two! 

[Janet Carol Ryan]

Either way I am doing this.  I may come here begging for support in a day or two but I am not giving in this time.  I have to make it thru that. 

I love your statement of commitment, and I stand witness to your BLESSINGS! I also believe that it may be possible for you to pass that threshold with ease. Maybe a gentle approach of loving and appreciating yourself every step of the journey (just as I sense you are doing already) and adding in a general blanket forgiveness practice - like anything that comes up gets your forgiveness - yourself, others, the past, ANYTHING just gets treated to the unconditional loving forgiveness of your divine Self!  

cheering you on!!!