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This past week I was about 40% raw. The issues with my boyfriend of 8 years are getting worse. It’s been tough dealing with my emotions and the stress. He says he wants things to work out between us, but right now he’s finding it difficult. He said he’s not at all inspired to go Christmas shopping for me. I said it was okay and that I didn’t want anything for Christmas. I said I was sorry things had gotten so bad. He said I’m not the same girl he fell in love with.
I have such bad social anxiety that my parents and my boyfriend are the only people I talk to on a regular basis. Well, aside from people at work that I need to speak to in order to do my job. I don’t see my parents very often. The only person in my life is my boyfriend, and he’s telling me we don’t have a relationship, that he doesn’t know me, and that I’m a joyless, miserable, blank person. My only friend says this to me, and it’s so hard to hear. It’s so hard because it doesn’t make me want to be happy, joyful, and perky. It makes me want to be more miserable, more closed off, and more distant. He said the only way we’re going to work out is if I start counting my blessings, being happy, and making my world bigger than just my cats and raw foods.
I’ve been trying so hard with raw foods to beat the depression and anxiety. When I was fasting, I didn’t feel happy. I was blank. And now it’s been extra tough these last few days because even though he’s said he’s supportive of me and the whole raw food thing, he throws it back in my face by saying “How long are you going to do this? I hope you’re not going to do this on Christmas. You better eat REAL food.”
He also said he doesn’t like eating alone. He doesn’t like the fact that I don’t eat with him at fast food restaurants. He always has to get take out to eat by himself. I do understand… I should make more of an effort to go where he wants to go and I’ll just make the best choice possible. And I told him whatever he wanted to do for Christmas dinner, I would go along with it. I promised to leave raw foods alone for the holidays if that’s what he wanted. I’m disappointed, but it’s driving a bigger wedge between us.
Is anybody else having a hard time with their significant others about being raw?