No rigid rules, labels or dogmas.... just REAL food, for your body, mind & soul!
I can't believe it has been over 2 years. So much has happened.
It has been a very rocky 4 plus years.. My husband an alcoholic got to be too much to deal with. I dealt with the stress by eating.. Gained back all the weight I had lost and then some. I am just over 300 lbs now. I had stayed at 275 for 3 years. Then in October I asked him to move out. It took until 2 months ago for him to finally leave. It was a hard winter. More stress than I have ever dealt with. I gained 28 lbs.
Now that the dust is settling. I have been thinking long and hard about my own addiction. Why is it that an alcoholic's way to recovery is to give up alcohol but a food addicts way to recovery is to eat in only in moderation? I have been pondering this. I am not addicted to anything that is healthy for me- just the things that are unhealthy- sugar, processed foods, fried foods. For some they can eat meat and dairy in moderation with an abundance of fruits and veggies- and be healthy- but for a food addict we can't get enough of meat and dairy- of course along with the other bad stuff.
So what if the food addict were to cut those foods out completely as part of their recovery? Just as the alcoholic were to remove alcohol from their lives as part of their recovery.
With that in mind, today I woke up and went back to my vegan diet.. At least mid-raw, working up to high raw. The boys will eat vegan at home and whatever they want when not at home- they are not food addicts- I am, I will not force them to eat vegan all the time.
I am 303 lbs.. Today is a new day. The start of my new life. My kids and I are moving home to CA to start fresh.. I can't wait.