Adding LIFE to your years and years to your life!
I've never done a blog before so this is a first. My journey to health has been a long time coming because as someone else said before, I was raised to think myself unworthy. I worked through a great deal of that kind of thinking, but always knew some parts remained--especially when it came to my own self.
My Dad died young at 62 and I have always thought I did not want to end up that way. I am the heaviest in my immediate family--even though weight is an issue for my father's side of the family. My mother has hardly weighed over 100 lbs her entire life. I was always everyone's caretaker as the oldest child--really, chief cook and bottle washer--the lead responsible for us kids. And my entire life has been spent that way!
I once had a reading by Mona Lisa Schultz, a medical intuitive, who said that my weight was the burden of my responsibilities--that I had to let them go so I could heal my life. I have come to understand how right she was! As I have shed some of the responsibilities I've carried--especially that one of doing it myself because only I could do it correctly--I have come to greater understanding of the need to care for myself first.
My bliss is being in service and my life's work as a priest serves me extremely well. It is through my practice of faith as a Buddhist that I have made this incredible journey and now find myself on the brink of absolute success. This is very scary because I know the only one who can prevent my success is me. Physically, the raw journey is wonderful, healing, intoxicating to the senses--I feel awake, aware, alive. Emotionally, giving myself permission to be the healthy and vibrant woman I want to be is difficult. It's pretty easy for me to sabotage myself with the "just this once" kind of thinking. This is what my prayers are about--to be open to being who I already am--in a smaller size!
I have told my family and friends about this journey so they will help me to not be enticed by all the things I allow to tempt me. Not yet 100% but some days are totally raw, with pure vegan fare the rest of the time.
The weather is beautiful and it's the perfect time for this journey of health and faith.