eating disorders

[channa brennon]

I wanted to share some things I found along the way in my journey back to healthy eating......I found out that eating disorders or unhealthy eating is caused by emotional and physical toxins....at least for me... being a incest survivor and only very recently working on breaking the patterns of abuse....I realized why this whole food thing has been so hard for me...

I literally stuffed the emotions down.Yes there is so many pathogens that we are being exposed to more and more every day ( I have learned all about this on my journey as a biomed mom trying to heal my sons health issues)

but I believe we hold onto these pathogens toxins because of the emotional mental patterns...

I am trying...to let go...so much healing tools that I am coming across every day...the  latest boook i want to buy is about using flower essences on meridian points....

I am detoxing and releasing and finding my intuition gets more and more powerful...this is exciting for me because I want to be a better healer for my son and others....

I am hopeful but patient with myself as I journey again to a better me...

 

 

 

[Carolynn McDade]

great ideas, thanks for sharing! 

[channa brennon]

oh Amahla is the primrose the oil you use or is it a flowerr remedy?

[channa brennon]

oh my goodness Amahla! thank you for sharing these remedys with me!  I had to stop my fast yesterday as I was dealing with severe PTS and the Mariposa sounds perfect for me at this point in my life...God bless you for sharing...i will be buying that asap!

[Amahla Johnson]

Totally agree with you and congratulations for finding the keys that you need.  And thanks for reminding me about florapuncture - I wanted to get that book too!  I use flower essences a lot and find them very helpful.  I also have been challenged with issues around control and abandonment.  Evening primrose is a good one for abusive childhoods, and I use bleeding heart anytime I find I am going into abandonment stuff.  Mariposa lily is for very early childhood wounds relating to nourishment, and being cared for.  

[Carolynn McDade]

Great for you!  I'm keeping a good thought for you from California!

[channa brennon]

these are great ideas...i have a specail needs son so less options to do things for myself:(   today is expecailly difficult lot of difficult emotions coming up...i am trying to stay aware be in present time....and sticking to high raw.....

[Carolynn McDade]

Hi Channa!

One thing i did was bought a stuffed cat and sometimes it helps to lay down or sit down and snuggle with it.  Cats have always been a source of comfort for me, and i can't have a live one where i live at present.  Other times, i put my dog on a leash and go out for a walk to distract myself.   The cat is for comfort.  I also hug myself or pat my heart.   There are times i ask myself if i'm REALLY hungry.....  I can say it's very difficult changing a food-comfort habit after decades of turning to food!!

Prayers are a good idea too!! 

I have joined a hiking group called "tails and trails" recently.  It's an every sunday event... had my first outing this past weekend, and it was refreshing!

I'm sending all my best thoughts!

[channa brennon]

oh carolyn.....you hit it dead on....when my boyfriend leaves is when i start craving the comforts of food....we feel abandoned...for me also I was either forced to eat or starved...so I learned food is a punishment or giulty pleasure...all messed up.....I cant wait to do more energy work on myslrf and see what helps remove this programming...

I start praying a lot when I feel my urges come up....and I try to find out if I am truely hungry or it is emotional.....I used to write down ways to meet people at one time....I am advocating natural healing so that is my opportunity to meet others...maybe you could start or attend support group in your area....for raw foods...just a thought...thank you for sharing  with me..carolyn it is encouraging to hear others go thru similar issues..

[Carolynn McDade]

Hi Girls! 

Very insightful, and the support is welcome.  It's not that i "like" hearing that others have some issues with eating disorders, but it's helpful knowing i'm not alone.

I have discovered i have a couple negatives going on in my head - an inner critic who tells me "it's ok to stuff yourself this time!" (and other ugly messages).  I also have that inner child who is often screaming out for comfort.  I've discovered a lot of my issues stem from my child.  I often feel abandoned after i have a visitor here -- when they leave, i sometimes head for the food or the bakery and stuff the sudden void of aloneness.  It's crazy if you think about it!!  I don't hate my life, but i have been alone for seven years after raising kids and experiencing people around me much of the time.    Now that i'm mostly recovered from my accident, and don't have recovery to focus on, i crave companionship.  I realize i can't pull that out of the sky, nor do relationships of any kind magically appear.  I'm working on it the best i can.

I'm an artist, so my work is also isolating.  I'd love to be able to afford a studio in our local co-op, and i'm trying my best to attain that goal!

I'm sending out best wishes to you! 

[channa brennon]

thank you K.G and carolynn for your comments....eating addictions is such a big problen in this country because it is the most readily drug available. and we can be socailly accepted binging on food then say shooting up on heroin.

It is sooo hard to break those patterns that we have had programed in our heads like we are unworthy. for me God was soo huge in reprogramming these beliefs and yet...it is a journey...and it is layers ...many layers....

I actually felt my need to burry my emotions in food that came apon me so strong last night...and I did binge on raw fruit and veggies only....and somehow it did not have the same negative effect that say i had binged on cook foods....

I have been thinking about starting a second blog about healing food disorders...thank you for your comments it is encouraging....so many of us need a support for this....