Day Two PM

[Sarah Walker]

Well here we are...I cant say that I feel great, but I also cant say I feel badly either. My eyes are really sore, itchy and sticky and I am having ALOT of BMs. I know to much information, but I figure maybe someone else needs to hear this as much as I need to document it.  Anyway 2/3 meals today were  raw and dinner was simple and I feel good about it.  It felt nice to be conscious of what I was putting in my mouth , so even the things that were not raw I was thinking about .

I am scared of the weekend....My husband  comes home tommorow, and we normally have a date night on friday night becuase he is gone all week. Its our time to catch up. Well I told him my changes in diet, and I couldnt help but sence a weird tone to his voice. He really enjoys bring me home dinner and a bottle of wine, even though saturday morning I always feel crappy and pretty much feel run down the entire weekend. So I told him that we need to find something else to do tommorow night that doesnt involve food. I am hoping that we can do something else, and not even visit the issue. I am worried that if I cave in for this meal tommorow night, that I wont be successful for the rest of the weekend. Lots of prayers going out for that this eve, to bring me some kind of confidence. I think if I can show my hubby this weekend that this change is the real deal not just something I do when he is away, it will seem more real for both of us.

 

but anyways....back to today.

I had some weak moments...I really did , where I had to walk away. My children are still eating cooked and even some cheese (I am slowly phasing it out) , so today cutting up cheese for my 2yo was a challenge. My emotions kept saying ...eat it....eat it ...eat it...buy my heart kept saying ...you want something more then this cheese. Its not about the cheese...you want more. It sounds odd now that I am typing it out. What kind of person needs to talk herself down from a peice of cheese...lol

I am eager for tommorow. Every morning feels truly like a new day .....

Sarah

 

[RawSteps]

I've seen people mention raw wine on food blogs, but I don't know anything about it.  Maybe something for you and hubby to check out.  Probably something akin to standard vinegar vs. Bragg's unpasteurized vinegar. Lots of people post fun ideas for raw Valentine's Day meals -- maybe you could find some fun ideas their for your date night with hubby.  You two can share a vegan cooked meal, but maybe you could have fun making a raw dessert once in a while?  Just some ideas!

[RawSteps]

Right now I'm up against one of those detours on my journey (an "unplanned opportunity", LOL)!  

Between the economy and family medical expenses I've had to take a job.  That translates to two fulltime jobs, of course: first shift homeschooling and second shift work.  Sooooo..... right now I'm trying hard to squeeze in raw food prep for me, SAD food prep for family and making juice or a smoothie for me to take to work.  I'd also like to start sprouting, my kids like fruit leather ..... so I'm trying to figure out a good weekly routine that still leaves time to breathe and sleep, LOL! 

Needless to say, I've slipped back to more SAD food lately since I started working.  That's got to go!  :D

[Arlene (Lene) Ferik]

I am another who enjoys your updates. Keep them coming. I'm rooting for you.

[Betty]

Sarah, if you knew how mucus forming all dairy products are, and how damaging to your body, you would have a much easier time resisting :-D

Cheese is one of the things I thought I could never give up, when I considered going more vegan, but now I rarely touch it. I've listened to many of Dr. Robert Morse's talks on youtube, he is a detox specialist...and he says dairy is the worst thing for the human body, worse than meat even. He has seen what it does to your organs, any way I am getting off topic a bit, lol!

You can still do your date night on Friday, hubby can bring home dinner, but tell him to include a huge salad for you, or something else that is maybe vegan but cooked. I know you want to go 100% raw, but I also realize that it can cause a lot of tension between partners when one wants to change their life and the other wants to keep the status quo.

  We like to pretend everything will go great, but in reality, people are threatened when someone changes, because then they have to look at themselves, and that is uncomfortable.  If it were me in your position,  what I would do is enjoy a vegan dinner tonight, and get back on the raw tomorrow.  Eventually your hubby will notice the postive changes in you, and may be inspired himself, to include more raw, but even if he doesn't, this is something you are doing for yourself.

I'm enjoying your updates, you go girl!

[Sarah Walker]

Thanks Rawsteps! I think we should definitly do this walk together, that would be  awesome!  I would love the support and the idea of raw friends is awesome! lol

Where are you in your journey?

 

[RawSteps]

What kind of person needs to talk herself down from a piece of cheese?  Me!  LOL  I can soooo relate to all of your posts.  I have a lot of raw in my life, but I want to take it further.  You not only inspire me, I want to do this right along with you.