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Well here we are...I cant say that I feel great, but I also cant say I feel badly either. My eyes are really sore, itchy and sticky and I am having ALOT of BMs. I know to much information, but I figure maybe someone else needs to hear this as much as I need to document it. Anyway 2/3 meals today were raw and dinner was simple and I feel good about it. It felt nice to be conscious of what I was putting in my mouth , so even the things that were not raw I was thinking about .
I am scared of the weekend....My husband comes home tommorow, and we normally have a date night on friday night becuase he is gone all week. Its our time to catch up. Well I told him my changes in diet, and I couldnt help but sence a weird tone to his voice. He really enjoys bring me home dinner and a bottle of wine, even though saturday morning I always feel crappy and pretty much feel run down the entire weekend. So I told him that we need to find something else to do tommorow night that doesnt involve food. I am hoping that we can do something else, and not even visit the issue. I am worried that if I cave in for this meal tommorow night, that I wont be successful for the rest of the weekend. Lots of prayers going out for that this eve, to bring me some kind of confidence. I think if I can show my hubby this weekend that this change is the real deal not just something I do when he is away, it will seem more real for both of us.
but anyways....back to today.
I had some weak moments...I really did , where I had to walk away. My children are still eating cooked and even some cheese (I am slowly phasing it out) , so today cutting up cheese for my 2yo was a challenge. My emotions kept saying ...eat it....eat it ...eat it...buy my heart kept saying ...you want something more then this cheese. Its not about the cheese...you want more. It sounds odd now that I am typing it out. What kind of person needs to talk herself down from a peice of cheese...lol
I am eager for tommorow. Every morning feels truly like a new day .....