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Yesterday should have been day 8 of my juice fast, but I failed:( I work in retail, so I normally work weekends. But, usually when I have a weekend day off, that's when Ken and I like to go out for breakfast or lunch, something we normally can't do. So, yesterday was the first day I had off from work at the same time as Ken since I started the juice fast, and I was just overwhelmed with the urge to eat, and go out and enjoy ourselves. My mind still unfortunately associates food with joy, laughter, love, and all that other good stuff. It also didn't help that Ken has been off his juice fast for a few days, and that we were meeting his family at Disney for the Halloween event. I wasn't too bad at first. I decided early in the day that I was going to break my juice fast, and I told him that I was going to do it right. Even though I wanted to go out to breakfast and eat all kinds of bad food. So when we went to the market I got a green smoothie at the juice bar. Within an hour my stomach was killing me. So, I was terrified to eat anything else, afraid I would end up in the bathroom all day (sorry if it's TMI). But, my stomach started to settle down, so before we headed off to Disney I got another green smoothie, still determined to properly break my fast. I was doing okay with the cravings and overwhelming feeling to eat until we got to Disney and meet up with his family. Of course, as soon as we meet up they all wanted to grab dinner. I finally broke and I got a hotdog and fries:( And that just started the downward spiral. On the drive home we even stopped by McDonalds. I'm just so disappointed in myself. It wasn't even worth it. I was loving the juice fast. I felt so great, and the food I ate wasn't even that good. It just sucks that I let myself get into my head like that, it amazes me that I was able to talk myself out of doing this juice fast anymore, just because some little part of my brain was screaming "I want to eat!"
However, even though I messed up my juice fast yesterday, I'm getting back on the horse today! I really want to continue this at least for another 7-10 days. I may not be able to do the original 30 days that I planned, but I am determined to start this over. I was feeling so good, and I was doing really well with the weight loss as well (down 11lbs, whooohooo). The biggest obstacle now, other than my own self sabotage, is going to be the fact that Ken is not doing well at all. He has fallen back into his old ways. I really think he truly has a junk food addiction and I don't know how to help him. He says that he really likes the raw foods that we make and really enjoys eating them, but that he enjoys a big mac more! But, I have to stay strong for myself and remember why I wanted to do this juice fast in the first place, no matter what Ken is eating next to me.