That is right, it's just slop!! And the unhealthier it is, generally the more it looks like slop. Just slop!! Dead, decaying, slop. It's funny to be in a place where I barely miss it. And you know what's funny? Even if you slop raw food down on the table, unless it's like a nut cheese or puréed, generally it's pretty hard for it to even remotely remind me of slop. You slap an apple on the table. Pretty much won't remind anybody of slop. Mashed potatoes? Slop! Generally the less something looks like slop, the healthier it probably is (although I think mashed potatoes are absolutely fine, just making a silly point here). Unless its a purée :p. That is healthy slop. But there is something about all of the browns, whites, reds, and yellows of cooked food and the way it wiggles that generally reminds me of slop.
Today I had far less gas :). It's because I had barely any time to eat anything let alone something that would cause me GI upset. I had guacamole with thinly chopped spinach, three big apples, and I am glad that they don't seem to cause me any discomfort, and then when I got to mom's, because there wasn't much here and I needed to have something, a bag of heated up edamame. I hope that doesn't pull me back at all in terms of detoxification, but I needed to have something of substance and she just doesn't have a lot of options here. It would be worse to have nothing. It caused me gas again, after almost a whole day without it! At least I am learning now that I truly am sensitive to particular foods. Which in a way kinda stinks because I don't like eliminating even more foods. But you've gotta do what you have got to do, and well, for the most part I am very grateful for being able to do this, and being able to surround myself with produce and to hopefully heal, and have the opportunity to do so in this way. Lucky girl, I would say. I complain like a child sometimes, but as of these last few months I have somehow matured and it's been much easier to see all the things I should be grateful for. I think it's easier maybe because I am in less pain, thanks to the medicine I am on (but won't be for long) and having a new hope thanks to getting a vitamix and seriously enjoying my food so much more because of it, and also I have an incredible amount of support from my boyfriend. I guess that must be it (speak of the devil! He just called :p ). It really has been a hell of a lot easier to appreciate life with all of the help he has given me. Adam has the sense of a lawyer, he is an engineer and he is extremely skeptical and probing--and he supports my raw diet, making him an absolute treasure to take to the doctor's office. He defends me from my parents, and since he is so reasonable they have to listen to him (I have great parents, but stubborn ones). Everything has just been so much easier. I feel selfish and stupid to say I feel grateful, because of course I do. Much of the weight has been taken off my shoulders, anyone would notice the blessings in their life after that--it's almost rather ridiculous for me to even say. If I were doing this all by myself, that would be noble, but this just makes me seem more like a child. I really would like to be more in control of it all.
He is in a hurry to pick me up because my skinny boy hasn't eaten :) If people were to look at the two of us--this is rather silly and would probably anger him if he knew I thought this, but based on current health standards and stereotypes, I am somewhat curvy and my cheeks are always rosy, and he's tall, pale, (ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE <3) and skinny. I'm dead certain people who are ignorant would think I am the meat and potatoes person and he is the vegan. Nope. Completely vice versa. He has no interest at all in vegetarianism and loves absolutely everything dairy. I hope that didn't sound offensive--I just love how we defy the stereotypes :). I am almost certain some vegan woman has said this already before and she came off as remarkably silly, and now I seem just brainless. But it's something I kind of relish in, because what is more ignorant is all the people who judge and stereotype when they are absolutely wrong. :). Even worse, the people who the diet doesn't work for, so they assume that it can't work for anyone else, and try to find ridiculous photos of skinny vegans that don't eat properly period, and make themselves look like imbeciles, saying stop the dogma when they are actually spreading more.
I am going on and on. I hope I did okay on my microbiology test today. I am a little worried because I noticed that the guy next to me might have been cheating off me, and it bothered me so much I had no choice but to email the teacher. I feel nervous, almost guilty--I didn't want to cause any drama or get anyone in trouble and I wasn't sure if he had, but he was acting rather suspicious, so rather than notify anyone in the testing center, I just emailed the teacher my concern, saying I wasn't positive he did, but he was acting strange. I just don't think anyone should get away with cheating, it isn't fair. People already get way too much respect just for graduating college, let alone when they cheat their way through. And I think if you aren't doing things to improve your character and be good in life, you are doing nothing for the world. If he was cheating, I want him to learn that it is not okay to do things like that. There are too many corrupt people in the world and people who think doing things like cheating is cool. Too many things wrong with the world still. Cheating isn't cool, it never will be, and I certainly won't put up with it. So I did email her. I am hoping I was wrong. I also hope this wont make the teacher despise me in some way. I hope I don't regret this. It's weird to worry this much about something, but for some reason the whole situation makes me want to cringe!
Adam is on his way to pick me up!! Yay, I miss him :)