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I had a realization about myself this morning that I thought I would share with you all because it might help you too. Well, maybe you already knew this about yourself from the beginning--but it's taken me until today to realize this particular thing about myself at this point in my journey.
I have lost pretty much all of my addictions to the flavors of cooked food. In fact if someone takes me out to a restaurant, I just don't have the appetite for some complex, cooked vegan sandwich or meal with a combination of perfectly flavor proportioned ingredients. I don't salivate for such things anymore, and in fact I find such things a bit overwhelming. I crave simple flavors.
But for the last month or so I have been a little confused at myself. Yes, I've been incorporating what raw foods I have been able to each day in accordance to how I am feeling, what I can digest, how my arthritis is feeling and what my ulcerative proctitis will react to, and I have learned how to do it adequately over time. I know now not to eat a whole head of celery without juicing it, or more than half a cup of cooked peas in a day, or any beans at all. Simple things that seem so silly but can really irritate my ulcerative proctitis. I now know not to eat nuts period, because I am heavily intolerant to them, and I've lost my addiction completely. I now know not to eat a fruit, and then, if I so desire a cooked meal, to allow myself something that has a small amount of beans. I know that a meal heavy in fat is hard on my digestion, even if it is, "healthy fat," and that if I want to have abundant energy, abundant carbohydrates are the way to go. I know how caffeine interrupts my digestion and emotional balance. I have learned how to keep an adequate balance without completely depriving myself of things that I want and with still allowing myself to improve. I incorporate many fruits and veggies into my diet on a daily basis, and every day I find ways that make them work even better for me.
But in this last month or so, with the loss of the flavor addictions and the increase of healthful awareness of my body, I have still been confused at why I lean towards some cooked foods. And it took me until this very morning to realize it.
It's not the flavor I am craving anymore. In fact I am always surprised at how dissatisfied I am after eating anything cooked, even if everyone around me is oohing or ahhing at it, I still feel, well, like I am left out of the party. It's just bland, heavy...I do like textures, but flavors--I could really care less. So why do I still lean toward bland cooked foods like boiled barley with onions and garlic and bread with no salt or sugar added or rice. It's such a funny, strange necessity to have. Or even sugary carbs, which I am finding are satisfying me less and less and that my sweet tooth is diminishing rather rapidly...
And I think I realize now that it's that feeling I get in my stomach. The satiation. The warmth. There's something about it that I am craving, maybe a feeling that I am clinging to subconsciously that I feel with the fullness of these cooked, starchy foods. Or maybe a necessity for easily digestible foods that are high in calorie as well. In my nut-addiction period, that was my excuse, of course it made me feel like crud, whereas at least I am getting a fair energy source from this food addiction.
I am wondering if I increase the amount of warming teas in my diet, if this will help curb that desire I feel internally.
I am also losing weight and feeling more refreshed in mornings since I've eliminated my bedtime meal/snack!!! It's incredible how much better I feel doing this one change. It has helped me time and again throughout my life and it is the one solid dietary change that seems to give me the most profound results!!!!
Any suggestions for me? Have you experienced the same thing? What have you done or what are you currently battling right now on your journey!? Take care lovely souls!!!