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A Mini Epiphany

I've spent a lot of time in my 63 years on this wonderful planet putting pressure on myself to do everything perfectly and chastising myself when I fell short (which I believed was most of the time). This pattern has been most evident in my journey to become 100% raw AND to sustain that goal. If at anytime during a "day in the life of Raw Food Linda" I would "fail" to stay on the straight and narrow, I would feel like I had blown it. When that feeling hit the little voice inside would say "Well, you've blown it and today is ruined. You might as well forget your goal for today". And, of course, this was always followed by behavior that matched the feelings and self talk.

Last night I was having a discussion with my son who has struggled with alcohol addition for many years. He recently "fell off the wagon" and was mentally beating himself up. In our discussion I heard myself tell him that it doesn't matter if you fall it matters how you pick yourself up. Then I told him that if it took him 50 times of trying to maintain sobriety before he achieved his goal those 50 (or more) times were not failure......each was a step forward on his path to sobriety. DING DING DING DING!!! Wow! What an insight into my own journey that was. The more I thought about it the more I realized that everyone I knew, read about, or heard of, that was on a journey to change a deeply ingrained behavior DID NOT travel that road in a straight line to the goal. ALL of them had deviated from the path at some time and most many times. I WASN'T A FAILURE!!! If the road was not a straight line for the rest of humankind....then I guess it's not for me either. In my pressurized quest for perfection I hadn't realized that I was already on my own perfect journey.

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Comment by Sassafras on January 3, 2012 at 12:53pm: Reading your epiphany moment - I like the baby steps in professor out there on the web's site google "3 tiny habits". Seems like it will help! Good luck in the new year!!

Comment by Dakota Reese on August 8, 2011 at 2:15pm: omg i just read your lil epiphany and it descibes me perfectly...........actually put tears in my eyes......yes i would love doing a juicefeasting with you girl:)

Comment by Linda Bedell on April 10, 2011 at 7:00am: Thank you for your support. It means more to me than I can put into words.

Comment by Rawlyssa on April 9, 2011 at 1:54pm: Thanks for this post Linda. Boy do I see myself in this. I too am my own worst critic. You weren't a failure and that means neither am I! I keep trying and trying to perfect my raw journey. Thank you for sharing.

Comment by Penni on April 9, 2011 at 10:00am: Linda! This is really significant - "In my pressurized quest for perfection I hadn't realized that I was already on my own perfect journey." You have got it! As you meditate and press into this epiphany, you can really just relax and just enjoy the process! It is so true that we are always our own worse critic. As you continue to work thru the Go FRESH material and watch that self talk that you probably haven't even been fully aware of, you are going to be having breakthroughs right & left!

You are a dear, precious woman who has many important things left to accomplish on this planet. I believe in you and I see that you are totally on the wondrous path to optimal health!