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It's been a while, so here's an update.
I completed my 30 days on liquids only. I've had about a week and a half now after that with some solid foods, but kept it raw, so just added big salads with nuts, seeds etc and lots of fresh fruit etc, nothing cooked. It has been really great, everything taste so much more now then before the cleanse. I have overdone it a bit this week though with a bit more fats (yet healthy ones) and high calorie foods then necessary, I still have some weight to lose so it's not ideal. But I needed this week to really enjoy and appreciate things I've been craving, like avocados with balsam vinegar and seeds on top, and cashew dressings with my salads. It's nothing wrong with these foods of course but if you add it to every meal or overeat it in between meals or in the middle of the night you're not gonna lose the weight that's a fact ;) I still use food as comfort, I know this and it's something I will have to continue to work on. Anyway, I have not gained any weight after the liquid cleanse, just standing still for a while which is good to know, I did not realize how much I can actually eat of raw food and not gain anything. I suppose it's that "all or nothing" thinking.
Feeling so much happier now and I have no thoughts of going back to my old habits and junk food. Just feeling a bit heavy in my body from all the veggies and fruit I added after the liquid cleanse. From today I'll eat mostly green juices/smoothies/soups again and skip the avocado and cashew and other nuts for a while until I feel back on track with my plan to get my body in better shape :) I feel strangely calm about it though, in the beginning I felt like I was in a hurry to get this "done". I suppose I've realized it is not a temporary change for me anymore, I want my lifestyle to be high raw.
I dare to look at my body again, such a relief. The first step was take "before raw" pictures which I plan to publish here in a couple of months together with my after pictures! I still wear some baggy clothes but I am getting more and more comfortable, I really want to be confident in my body again so I don't say bad things about it anymore, I say kind things like "Yes, I am not happy about how this looks in the mirror right now, but this happened because of what I did to myself. It is completely possible to change it, it just takes some time and work". "I still love this body, it still does everything I need it to do, and it's mine". Once again, this might sound silly to some folks but it really works.
I can' believe it's only 5 weeks ago I started this process, I was thinking and acting in a total different way back then (haha, "back then" sounds a bit much), and all thanks to the food. I do not miss eating chocolate or bread or candy or ice cream or whatever, I only connect that with feeling miserable, tired and crying all the time. I really, really, hope I can remember that in the long run.
I hope everyone is doing well and keep going . If not, try again ♥