I've been having a hard time...

[Suzanne]

My younger sister passed away suddenly last Tuesday November 2nd. I am just beside myself I miss her so much. She was only 45. She was there one minute and gone the next. She woke up that morning saying she slept well and was feeling better. She was sitting on my mothers couch and talking one minute and slumped over and gone the next. She was diabetic, had already had a heart attack, a stint. Had 3 toes amputated and was always fighting an infection somewhere it seemed. Her last 5 years had been really rough.

I have been avoiding the rehab unit although I've been missing you all. I was just sort of hiding out. I have to admit that I have been
in an unhealthy bingeing spiral. I'm trying really hard to stop it.
Being here is part of that.

I'm trying to motivate myself to get back on the good foot and start feeling better again. Try to find some middle ground. Sane ground and be among kind friends.

My sister's death has really thrown me for a loop. This life is so short. Jennifer's death has been slapping me in the face that I can't be frivolous with my health and think all the horrific things my sister went through. I have to do all I can to take care of myself and see my children grown...

My 13 year old nephew said, "I wish mom could meet my wife and kids, you know, when I get them." :(
Please keep my family in your prayers. My sister was a dear sweet person and we are all going to miss her so much.

I hope you are all well. Sorry I have been AWOL.

Suzanne

[Penny]

welcome back, and my experience of this site, is that lots of support will come from this site
Blessing to you.

[Marcella Frater]

I'm so sorry for your sudden loss. I'll keep your family in my prayers.

[Mary M.]

I'm so so sorry to hear about your terrible loss, Suzanne. And thank you for sharing it with us so we can be here to support you, hold you and your family in our thoughts, prayers and hearts. I know how hard it is sometimes not to resort to our comfort foods during these times, perhaps just one green smoothie a day will give you the nutrients you need to keep you strong ... Much love

[Celia Ellen]

Now the Dear Lord has your wonderful sister all to Himself. His child is with Him. One can imagine she now has a bliss which we can only dream of.

Such beautiful comments here... So much love to you through this difficult time. And love forever.

[Christine Despres]

You'll be there for your nephew and his kids someday. Cause you're going to be happy and healthy for your sister! I'm so sorry for your loss. Take care of you - heal spiritually. Take time to recover and don't worry about the food right now, but maybe when you eat healthy you'll think of her and how she'd want you healthy to be there for the family she left behind.

Sending blessings your way. Think of all the good things you shared with your sister. My prayers are with you and your family.

[Bette Bliss Shaw]

My heart goes out to you. I cannot even imagine this. It is tough to see loved ones die for food related challenges. Yes it gives greater impetus for us to take good care of ourselves yet you will be working your way through the stages of grief and healing now. Be kind to yourself and patient through it. Special memories will replace the pain after a while. You will have so much of her inside you (you already do you will just be more aware!) and you will treasure all she left to grow in you!

We are with you as you heal. Love, Bette

[Mary Ann]

My prayers go out to you - I can't even begin to imagine your pain. Everyone is here for you - keep coming and keep posting. Take it one minute, one step, one meal at a time. Just LEAN in to being healthy. It will come back to you. Take care of yourself and know that you are loved and supported.

[Deborah Grissam]

God bless you Suzanne and ease your sorrow.

[Suzanne]

Thank you so much everyone for your love, care, and prayers. I appreciate you all.

[Sassafras]

Suzanne, my sympathies on the loss of your dear sibling! I'll be praying for you and your family.