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I have the opportunity to go to a friend's lake house for seven full days. Seven days of just me time. I have several activities planned out for myself, sewing, painting, small knitting projects, MY music, chick flicks, and I can invite my friends for a sleep-over. I am so excited!
I need time to myself for renewal. I asked my husband if he was okay with me being gone for a week (it's less than 30 minutes from home) and he said he was but he didn't understand why. I had a hard time explaining why. How do you verbalize mental and emotional fatigue? How do I explain that I feel like I'm not giving my best at being a wife, mother, friend, care-giver? That I would like to just be alone.
It's not our marriage. We had a rough spot last year and we've made it through. He is working to be what does not come naturally to him. But I still feel like I could do better but I think I'm "given out". I want to be a better wife/housewife to him and a better mom.
My journal is filled with so many ideas and goals but I don't have the motivation to make them happen. Fun goals and ideas but I just can't make them happen. I'm taking this time to talk with God in a quiet place and to be still and listen. Taking time to do thing I enjoy doing but don't make time for at home (too many distractions and people pulling me in all directions).
Now the guilt sets in. How can I leave my family for seven days? How will they live without me? Who will make their smoothies? (Reading between the lines: How will I live without my family?)
It is exciting to plan to do nothing and I'm looking forward to it. Now to tell the guilt where to get off.