All Blog Posts Tagged 'emotions' (37)

Eating 100% raw is the ideal for me. I aspire to that idea.  But I have not manifested such an aspiration... and when I eat bread or meat or whatever I tend to feel guilty because I had set a goal for myself, and have 'let myself down' so to speak. I do eat a diet high in raw foods, but still eat junk as well.  I am just going to cut myself a break whenever and wherever  I am because you know what I am headed in that direction.  I ask God to remove toxic emotions from me so that I can live…

I wanted to share some things I found along the way in my journey back to healthy eating......I found out that eating disorders or unhealthy eating is caused by emotional and physical toxins....at least for me... being a incest survivor and only very recently working on breaking the patterns of abuse....I realized why this whole food thing has been so hard for me...

I literally stuffed the emotions down.Yes there is so many pathogens that we are being exposed to more and more every…

Feel really great today arthritis-wise and think I'm going to go on a bike-ride.  The heat hasn't really been bothering me this year, in fact it just feels positively wonderful on my joints!!

Emotion-wise I'm a little sad, as my boyfriend and I have been having a lot of struggles in our relationship lately.  It's just been hard and I really care about him and want to be with him for as long as possible, and it just makes me so sad that we keep having so many squabbles and…

Hi guys :)  I know I've not written in ages... May 11 was my last entry on here and I used to write daily.



Well on my new medication for arthritis, I haven't felt compelled to write on here because I've been feeling so much better :)  It's been such a relief...there are still it's cons, like the fact that I have to drink lots of water all day in order to keep myself from being dehydrated from it (it's a big side-effect), but all and all I know I've made the right decision for me. …

Hi guys :)

I ate lots of raw food yesterday--strawberries, blueberries, bananas, my breakfast of cucumber, zucchini, and sunflower seed dip that I showed you guys, watermelon, zucchini pasta--we'll get to that part in a second.  It was pretty awesome and I enjoyed it all.  It wasn't a 100 percent raw day but there was still quite a lot of raw food incorporated.

I texted my boyfriend that I wanted to do something romantic...he'd had a long day of school and work, so in a way I…

Hope everyone is having a lovely day. :)  Pretty and sunny here, thank goodness.  I've missed the warm weather and I am sure if you live in a climate that is cold for part of the year, you did too :)

Saw a really pretty bird this morning that I've never seen in real life before, flying along the highway median.  It was cool...had light…

Today I have been eating (and I aim to eat) supremely healthier.  My digestive tract seems to be working well because, although I'm bleeding still (ulcerative proctitis), I'm haven't been constipated in days and have been very regular! :)  I kept white grains to a minimum today (I use them to help push all the fiber I eat through), and ate some really lovely things.

Lots of oranges, really wonderful fresh ones (If I had ones like this around all the time, it'd be much easier for me to…

My dad took his girlfriend on a trip to Chicago for her 50th birthday, and they are staying there until Wednesday, which has worked out so perfectly, it's almost like my life is a storybook right now. :)  My boyfriend had to get all of his stuff out of his house on Saturday night because his roommate went bankrupt, and since it was his roommate's house, he sold it to the bank for really cheap and had to get everything out as soon as possible...which unfortunately has left my boyfriend…

Wow...yesterday I ended up having a crazy arthritic flareup.  I was pretty much confined to my bed all day.  That was really rough.  I tossed and turned all night too.  I remember thinking only half-awake during the night, "Am I being tortured?  What is all this everywhere?"  And then falling back to sleep.

This morning...ah it's hard to say whether things are much improved.  Dad was really annoyed this morning and not very friendly.  It's painful not to be understood for lying down…

 Yesterday night was kind of interesting...I went to class extremely ecstatic, happy, eager to learn.  I even walked from my car not caring if I left the lights on because I so direly didn't want to be late!  When I got there I was fascinated, watching, learning about the people around me.

As the class continued I started to feel worse and worse.  Pretty much almost all of my symptoms of both ulcerative proctitis and even arthritis kicked in--yes, arthritis.  My arthritis hasn't been…

I called the rheumatologist about disability leave...they understandably have a lot of questions to ask me just to get us back on the same page.  I've yet to speak with her, these are all nurses calling.  I am a little nervous.  People aren't so familiar with eating properly to cure disease...and this is U of M hospital......they're extremely scientific.  I feel blessed to get to go to one of the best hospitals in the world, but in the end, I've just been on tons of medications that have…

I need to -Rewind-

Back to basics...Just thought of this so I can organize my thoughts to pinpoint the things I need to do most and how to take care of them most effectively.  This way I can easily oversee everything and chart what I need to do in a very simple and all-encompassing manner.

Eating: Banana clementine sorbet... :)

Feeling: Cold, shivery, bad taste in my mouth, low…

Heehee, I have something kind of amusing to share with you guys.  Dad had a friend over last night who owns a catering business nearby.  He's extremely good looking and he and dad click because they both A) love cooking and preparing food and entertaining, and B) got divorces within the last year or two, and seem to be serial monogamists ever since.  He cooks extremely high-quality, beautiful, amazing food, has been on food network, etc.....He was actually married to a woman on food…

Sometimes I do the absolute most GOOFIEST things.  Today I was trotting around the kitchen and I caught myself singing, with the inflection of the Beach Boys, "I'm a sweet potato-tariannnnnnn"

Hahahahahaha I have issues.  Does anyone else randomly make up songs without even realizing it in the middle of doing general, every day, run-of-the mill things?  I even make up songs in my dreams while I am sleeping.  I can't remember last night's, but there was one.  I would love to begin a…

In the efforts to put myself out there and meet more vegans (since I've only met one in real life), I signed up for a vegan meetup group in my city. :)  I arrived--by myself--15 minutes late no less HAHA.  I considered just walking somewhere else by myself (it's my favorite city ever) because I was a little embarrassed, but I held it together and I KNOW that every hard situation like that just makes you stronger and more ready for whatever comes your way, so I walked in and was ready for…

Hi everybody :)

What a sunny day here in Michigan...how odd, how odd for late November!  This is the longest Autumn I can remember and I am not complaining...However I am sure we will pay back for it soon enough...come January...and February...and March..... :)  Snowy cold days.  Our world here refreshes at the beginning of the year...Isn't it interesting?  You could almost do seasonal horoscopes and learn from people's personalities based on what seasons they face and which…

Got one of those gigantic avocados today that have less fat and a weird aftertaste so I mixed chlorella, grapefruit juice, cumin and salt in.  Ah, not bad, a definite improvement and normalizes the color.  I like it.  Nothing beats a real avocado though. :)

Been feeling great and my skin is looking better. :)  I think just the two day high juice feast was enough to help me in some way because I've still been eating 100 percent raw but things have really been looking up.  My…

LOL I just had a naughty night!!!  -Naughty nights- are a phrase I just created right now.  It basically means, you eat whatever you want and don't give a crud what it is.  Course my own personal, "naughty nights," are probably most likely at least 80 percent of people's healthy days.  They almost always include lettuce and cucumber lol for example.  But I had an avocado, I had a cooked vegan staple, and I just ate as much of and whatever I wanted and had fun. :)  Finished that amazing…

Hey guys.  Well, yesterday I ate no nightshades (hadn't been for a long while), no added salt, no cooked condiments, no cacao...the only cooked thing I ate was butternut squash, which hadn't been hurting me before.  And the only change I made was that I increased my fruit intake and decreased my greens.

Woke up this morning in IMMENSE pain.

Now the fruit I have been eating hasn't been anti-inflammatory, so, that could be the real culprit.  Bananas and dates are inflammatory.…

It's 1 pm, I am sitting here eating radioactive orange cauliflower (conventional--okay, I know how we can feel about this--but really, if radioactive orange conventional cauliflower is the worst thing I am eating every once and a while, I can't be doing that bad...If you'd feed it to a child you can feed it to yourself, in my opinion.  And this would totally get the kiddies to eat fruits and vegetables) dipped in tomatillo guacamole, and I am thinking of all of the zillions of things that I…